I want to go back to Mexico.I beginning to feel like before.I don't want to be here .It's better when I am on vacation away from here.may be it's because i don't have to pretend to be OK.work sucks so much .I really need to go back to school .I say I am going to go back But I don't go through with it .I need motivation ASAP. as with the boys situation. well it's going no were at all. With A well It seems like I pushed him away .He doesn't pursue me like when we first started talking .I don''t know what I want If I like him or not .M is just there.I started going back to the gym to work out to get my body in shape and to build my muscles. I feeling so confused with what I want right now with everything.nothing fits and makes sense .I am very tired and I Don't know what to do right now.
